The end of a long year...
2004-12-31 - 7:04 p.m.

So, the obligatory year-end entry. Trying to sum up the entire year in a few paragraphs. I know I'll forget something, and that's why these things make me sad. So, here goes my first attempt.

I fell in love with Ex. Hard. I was so in love with him it was disgusting. I got drunk and kissed someone else. He broke up with me on April 13 and I was heartbroken. I've never been that sad about anything in my entire life. I'm just now completely over him. I had a one-night-stand.

Drugs. I tried meth, adderol, xanex. I overdosed on coke. I smoked pot for 3 months straight (at least twice a day), stopped for 2 months, started in again for a month, stopped for 2 1/2 months, and I'm back to occasionally smoking it. I'm still chain smoking, and could quit if I would quit drugs but I have no desire to. This hasn't been such a drinking year.

I graduated high school. I never thought I'd see the day! I started college with no major. I turned 18 and was legal to make my own decisions for the first time in my life. Dickson street gained much appeal becaue I could actually get into the clubs now, and did quite frequently. I moved out for a month and got lonely so I came back. I paid off my car, and started paying for my insurance and cell phone.

I went from being Ms Perfect who ALWAYS puts others feelings in front of her own, to a complete Bitch. I know I am, and it's great. I'm becoming quite the feminist and I'm enjoying every second of it.

I became best friends instantly with M. I lost all respect and believing the truth in anything Ja said. I had my fallout with AM, though we still talk and I guess are considered friends. Ex, well, I loved him and then I hated him. It changes constantly although we will never talk again now and I'm okay with that.

I feel like I've accomplished nothing this year, except I know that all this is a lot. And now I must go to M's house to get ready. We are going to the clubs and then to an after-party with these HOT twins. I even got my hair cut and my make-up done. My mom just got me alcohol and thinks I'll be gone from 10:30 until 1. In reality, I'm leaving as soon as I know she's gone and staying out until about 4:30. I feel bad for leaving my brother home alone on NYE, but he's 16. He has been given 2 Smirnoff Ices and he probably won't make it to midnight.

Okay, please yall BE SAFE! After last year and seeing 2 cops per exit I will not be driving drunk. I actually wont' be driving at all except to and from M's house. Okay, I hope you had an awesome year and I'll take a shot for you that 2005 is better than this one!